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I'm worried @ my mom, seems so nice, but goes about treating me like a nigger in her spare time.  I CARE.  I don't care @ her, but I care @ our relationship.  Not in every sense of the word -CB.

With my dad, he's always interested in my ways of liking to be like more European and stuff.  Obviously, he's gotten mad at me for like dropping something and not feeling like moving with him looking @ me..before I was pretty after quitting gymnastics!  I just realized that but have had thoughts @ it, like the depth of the feeling in several or many different ways..

Ellen, whatever you think I want to be.., I am just like Chloe Moretz, I did something, too, but I did some things that her mother maybe didn't make her do out of her site.

Oh, Ellen, though, in private, I wonder why you ask me stupid questions @ what I want, the thought escaped me.. I never wanted to be shit.  Everyone tells me that because of Tim Burton.

Oh, and I even hear noises in private that test me, wondering if they were planted there which I liked before when people were comfortable with me.  Like, they want me to feel bad about something I did and be like everyone else now for no reason, bc I'm not old enough to be their mother.

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Anyone wondering now what I'm watching..Ellen is off air and I did see a rerun probably not willing to see too many more.  I wanted to see Jimmy Fallon just because I like him.  I also found from my dad he's taking over Jay Leno, guess is on earlier.  :(

So, not watching anything.  I might watch "Ghost Adventures," though.  I just keep being busy.  Might not have Disney auditions in several following weeks and turn on that show.  That's what I'm reading, too, ghosts, true stories, things people report at least I know so far.

Sometimes, I flip through the channels.  They showed Annie 1 time, and I was gonna send in an audition video online to be a kid in that but gave it up and wanted to be Tinkerbell, or Alice, in the Disney World Main Street Electrical Parade.

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I found that people who moved to Florida, not even by Miami, when they were kids like over 5 often it seems that they wanna say I'm not really Floridian.  I think we've ruled out labeling any state as shit but welcoming any since people don't mind the cold of Europe.  Colbert!  Hehe.  Oh, a girl talking @ California he asked.

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Can someone tell me why people say they don't like me just because of being 1/2 Chinese but still prize my mom because she's a Baby Boomer?  I'm sorry, but my dad is mostly Caucasian and lots of white people, including Johnny Depp, have more Native American and would be very evil if you made fun of them, not like me and just sad.  I realize that is suggestive to someone without Native American because those people also have lots of problems racially.  You'd have to be an original Floridian from either some certain of places|countries of Europe and not be part Native American indian and be born as a Late Boomer or the child of 1 and an attractive daddy, like those cool English guys with often light brown hair combed mostly in a bowl but still looking good somehow.

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I added a comment to my last post since it was labeled with the race card.  I could have made a new post, didn't really think of that for some reason.  xp

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4 - This picture tells me my mom is European if she does this and no one wants me to because I am younger and not a maternal figure to them and my dad is probably a little Native American (from a woman) for some reason but has a respectable family tree otherwise, a bit too orchestrated but maybe how life goes.

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Time to practice singing, unfortunately have a tired spell.  Short warm-ups, a few easy songs, need to use the printer.

I feel like I'm choking or rather throwing up.  I ate a lot earlier but just had a hopefully natural slush today, McD's strawberry lemonade.

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I used to not really impose myself racially, just "was a person."  Now, I can hear that my teacher Ginny gets mad at me for my race and it doesn't feel good but doesn't feel bad.  I do not want to be Asian.  I do like the Middle East.  I am not mad @ Asians but maybe Koreans and Vietnamese and Tai.  Just consider me Chinese|Japanese.  I'm not Japanese but I mean I guess if you are just thinking of it cool being an island like NZ.  If you get anything about me you're gonna get I just wanna be European, more than those Jews, more than other people.

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Why do I deserve to be treated wrongly, in the 1st place?  Am I too fat?  Am I shaped like no one cares?  I have a nice shape but not a good figure.

You don't wanna talk I can't listen.  I'm not gonna have my life be nothing.  It was very important.  More important than your anger.

So, I had a big problem.

When people bore into me, I fear I lose myself.  I don't mind, weather the whether, but I'm totally ripped off for being 1|2 or part Chinese.  I don't believe that the very white 1s in restaurants with goldfish in the middle are as Middle Eastern but maybe more Oriental.  There are lots of tribes around Mongolia with blonde hair and blue eyes, don't know any mixes.  I have a feeling they are European nomads.