Don't Need You

My dad I feel the attention he gives me is depressing.  I know they make my cousin feel not a part of the family.  I find my aunt's opinion of what she is horrific.  I don't know what that would suggest to her.  I just mean, I see I'm following in a cousin 6 grades younger's footsteps who acts like an utter brat the entire 2 weeks or whatever when I've visited her, used to be more often than never.  I know that family did something and thought they and certain others they don't seem to have relation with .. they think I'm just an animal and all my thoughts are simply reads on the brilliance others believe they created, which I don't believe is 100% more created than the things I read and the good things I feel I do socially, if anything is out there.  They have nothing better to do than show off and meditate on your own decisions and feel that conversation from others should not exercise any risk.  They are a bit typical, but if you complain about that worry then they may not be fun.  All I can say is it's a bit annoying and not very generic.  I like to have a good time, too, but I believe I still deserve my childhood, looking for it to go away when I'm 70 and unfortunately some may be dead.  Even a husband may pass away.  I m truly scared of the future in this sense.